I don’t know why but looking out my window at night makes me really sad. I feel alone seeing all the different apartments with their blinds and curtains open and some light shining through. Some windows are a dark yellowish sight while others pitch black with the TV screen glowing and others are just dark. I can see the hallways of the buildings, a lonely yellow hallway with a an even lonelier staircase… What causes the sadness and loneliness, I do not know but it certainly makes me think. The dark night sky, the yellow yard lights and the building of apartments each filled with people relaxing, from a busy day out. Everyone is busy in their lives. Strangers to each other.
Looking out the window, I feel myself become hollow. The sadness grasping me stronger and stronger into the loneliness of this strange world. Then I think to myself, is there someone else looking out their window too? Feeling what I feel? Seeing what I see? Wishing to walk away yet unable to do so due to a strange attraction? And I wonder what does this all mean? I think of God. I think of His creations. And I think of death. I don’t know why but it feels like death.
One day when I die that’s how it will be empty, dark and hollow. With no one by my side. I could perhaps look at others but no one could see me.