Oh how I love letters and cards! There’s just something special about letters and cards personally given to you and no it doesn’t include e-cards or emails or even typed letters….. -_- These things are best handwritten and handmade. But sadly, I have no one to share this joy with. Some people don’t understand the value of these things and those who do are either too busy or don’t wanna put in the effort. sigh. And this really pisses me off!
Like what the heck are you doing with your life?!
I mean forget about writing to me, why don’t you have time or why can’t you just sit down for 5 mins and write a letter? A heartfelt message or wishes for someone who does actually mean something to you…..
I’m sure we all miss the old days when we used to get so excited upon receiving little greeting cards or letters from friends who moved far away. Heck! I remember writing letters to friends living next door! I also remember how, back in Pakistan, when we were little and we would exchange Eid cards with everyone. And we would get so much joy that we’d read them again and again. And they weren’t anything super decorated or big, they used to be tiny little cards for a rupee or two .
If I could, I would go back to that time and I know many would disagree and object saying there are many advancements now that have made things better for us but it’s not about that. Because no matter what I hear, I know that happiness in those times was truly something else. So much more than what we feel today. Happiness is more concerned with materialistic things now-a-days and I admit that I too wouldn’t choose to go back to the problems of the past so that’s why I want to bring the good things,thoughts,acts and hobbies from the past and instill them in our present and future.
I know it’s not simple and I can’t do it on my own but I can surely play my part. And I hope that I can find someone who is willing to support me in this and in practicing this with me………
I don’t know why but looking out my window at night makes me really sad. I feel alone seeing all the different apartments with their blinds and curtains open and some light shining through. Some windows are a dark yellowish sight while others pitch black with the TV screen glowing and others are just dark. I can see the hallways of the buildings, a lonely yellow hallway with a an even lonelier staircase… What causes the sadness and loneliness, I do not know but it certainly makes me think. The dark night sky, the yellow yard lights and the building of apartments each filled with people relaxing, from a busy day out. Everyone is busy in their lives. Strangers to each other.
Looking out the window, I feel myself become hollow. The sadness grasping me stronger and stronger into the loneliness of this strange world. Then I think to myself, is there someone else looking out their window too? Feeling what I feel? Seeing what I see? Wishing to walk away yet unable to do so due to a strange attraction? And I wonder what does this all mean? I think of God. I think of His creations. And I think of death. I don’t know why but it feels like death.
One day when I die that’s how it will be empty, dark and hollow. With no one by my side. I could perhaps look at others but no one could see me.
Soooooo 😀 I have no words for my laziness or what I’d rather call my busy-ness 😜 I just leave after posting a couple of posts and return months later. But hopefully not anymore (who am I kidding), I got my new phone and will finally be able to blog from My cell phone. So Yayyy!!! Who’s ready for some “mariam’s dairies” hmm? It’s time to get the party startedstarted!…. Again…
Soooo 😛 Once again i’m here after such a long time, but I’m gonna try my best to stay regular. Unlike before….
The actual problem is that I’d like to post from my cell but the app doesn’t post my stuff. I’ve switched like 2-3 mobiles but it just doesn’t post from there. Hence causing me to post only when i’m on from the laptop, which isn’t that often. I wish the app could work, then It’d be raining posts…. Hallelujah!! BUT sadly it doesn’t….. back to reality Mariam. Anyhow I will be taking time out everyday if not then at least 3 times a week. What sucks even more is I lost my followers because of my absence 😥
But yeah I guess I deserved that.
physical REGULAR , OH OH!!
I have officially realized that I suck at this. I cannot take out time daily to post stuff….. why?????